Another month of AA's passing today... It's now four months and it feels like the week before the anniversary is horrible and the week after is horribly draining as well. How do we feel as time takes as further away from the memories of our beloved boy? Or as the waters of sadness try to wash away the amazing love that we had for him and he had for us? Well imagine your self as a painter, someone on the level of a Picasso or Van Gogh.. Imagine you just finished your "Guernica" or your "Stary Night", and you had that gut feeling that this was a good piece, if not a great piece. Now what do you do when that piece is stolen or burnt to the ground? Most great artists are so arrogant and talented that they would probably shrug it off and start working on their next masterpiece immediately. If only we could somehow add our next masterpiece to the equation immediately, not to replace AA because we never want a replacement, but to fuel our artistic need as parents. Parents are artists in creating lives, memories, futures and more. Our lives are a living canvas that we cultivate and once children come into the picture our artistic style and outlook changes. What was once grey is now yellow and so on. The greatest art we can create as humans is not as easy as it seems. Many of you know that from your own personal experiences or from people close to you that have tried. We all live in the same art gallery. We all strive to create that "masterpiece". Some of us do and some of us are not as lucky. Some of us are lucky enough to create those works of art and have it last a life time and some of us lose them in fires. Although it burns the soul of our existence on a daily basis not to have the "masterpiece" of our boy with us physically, we know that God inspired us to create a masterpiece and hopefully one day, we get another chance. God bless all the wonderful artists and masterpieces of the world. We love you AA!
Mama and Papa ( Beemer says hi "Gordo")
Here's to four month of no more pain, tubies, or all the crazy things our children go through when dealing with such diseases.
Don't worry Roi, Michelle and Beemer-Time will NEVER erase Andrew's memory from your heart. It is true that Andrew will never be replaced but if you should be blessed with another Angel along the way-think of it as an addition to an already created beautiful canvas. God Bless-you guys are always in my prayers
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