3 Months or 91.3105497 Days Later

This is a cute video of AA dancing to one of his favorite Backyardigans episodes last summer, just before we started treatment at MSKCC.

Life is rough, there is no debating that these days. To be honest with you, I believe life has always been rough throughout the centuries, we just see the past from a different perspective. Most of us go through the struggles of making ends meet and find that challenging enough. On most days finding life completely over whelming. Life becomes even more challenging as we enter the social evolutionary process entering into relationships, having children, dealing with mortality and subsequent passing into the next phase of life.  How do we deal with all of the life issues that WE complicate life with, and still have dinner on the table by 6 or 7o'clock I have no idea. 
Now imagine having to deal with a sick husband, wife, child, mother or father. This added circumstance thickens the stew even further. Then imagine having to deal with the incomprehensible early death of a loved one. There are so many of you that have stood by our side as we have dealt with AA's battle with cancer. So many of you that have held our hands and are still holding our hands as we try to get back up from the knock out punch of all knockout punches, having AA pass away. Today, marks three months since AA's passing. These past three months or 91.3105497 days have been extremely hard. Some of you have gone through this, some of you understand the pain and the reality is that some of you do not understand the pain, and hopefully you will never have to understand what it is to lose your shinning star in life and then have to still move on with out him. Just imagine that the Sun that we see and feel everyday on this Planet Earth vanished. Then imagine surviving without it. Most would say it would be impossible but some would say to give it a go, what else is there to lose when you have lost everything that matters in life. Those of you that know us well, know that we are doing our best to move forward, but damn, it's been so difficult and every time an anniversary comes up the wound reopens as if it were the very first one. I write this not to evoke sentiments of pity for us, but to inspire you to value what you are given everyday. The everyday gifts that Life brings you. We miss Andrew Aidan immensely, and know he looks over many of us on a daily basis, while he even visits others as well. We are proud of our courageous boy and know that he is doing a stellar  job in Heaven as an Angel. Thank you for all the support we have gotten over the last year. 
Have a good day!


Michelle & Roi

If only it always happened like this.