The last two days have been some of the hardest ever for Michelle and I. We have started to understand that we need to let go of this horrible situation and let God do his work. This is something that has caused me extreme anger and disappointment with God. He knows it I have told him. Today I am letting go of the anger and hate. I am sorry for doubting his plan. It's just hard to do when you see your little boy getting ready for the next phase of his spiritual journey. One concept I always believed in, is what I call Spiritual Continuity. Something I came up with when I was younger after probably having one too many cups of red wine. I always thought that our Spirit/Soul was and is the true essence of who and what we are and that we have a definite cosmic purpose in achieving our goal. Our Andrew Aidan has been amazing to us and he will always be with us. He has taught us the beauty of love, understanding, sacrifice, joy, happiness, pride, wonder and soo much more. I guess it is his time to get his mama and dada ready for the next phase of life, whenever that may be for us. I am done being angry with God. I am making up with him because if I don't, guess what I will never be able to see my AA again in Heaven. We will see him again. We have tried almost everything possible with science and now let God be the one in charge from here. Only his miracle or willingness to keep him around will fix AA now. We are understanding that and are working on accepting that everyday. As I lay here next to him as he sleeps I marvel at the beauty of this little boy at the power he has to bring soo many together in one thought in one song of prayer. We love you AA and through your loving actions over the last 26 months I know you love us too. We still hope and pray for God to make you healthy again and to restore your health to full strength.
Roi
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